It’s not very stereotypically English to be positive and perky all of the time. We like to complain and moan. It’s a wonder we get anything done when we spend our lives speculating about things we have no influence over. The American’s however are brought up to believe anything is possible. To see the positive in situations. To focus on a goal and make it happen. Somehow I seem to have inherited an American attitude to life.

Of course these are sweeping generalisations. I can moan about the weather with the best of them. But inside I mostly feel negative about negativity itself. I’ve never lost the childlike ability to be completely overwhelmed and excited by things. I like when people can see the best in a situation and go for it. I get bored of people who moan and bitch about something and yet do nothing to change it. I don’t know where this approach to life came from. When I was younger my parents, though not censoring, weren’t exactly keen for me to watch American drivel. But they both also have a ‘can do’ attitude.

For me no obstacle is too great. There is a way to do anything. Of course I see the negatives and the possible problems. I most definitely don’t believe that life is easy. The challenges life throws at us can be hard. Between bullying and depression I’ve had my fair share from an early age through to the present day. But it’s how I react to both those challenges and opportunities that makes life a better place for me.

Over the past 12 months I’ve been far too apologetic about the way I see life. I’ve always respected other people having the right to approach their world in their own way, but this past year I’ve let that diminish my own right to say this is how I see the world. I’ve stopped being able to stand up for myself and say I don’t care what you think, this is how I do things. A cowardly bullying man not only made my life hell over the course of a few months, but I let him destroy my mojo. And I want it back.

I am one of the world’s cheerleaders. I like that I can find a solution to a problem and see the other side of every story. In my previous job I used to be very comfortable with saying “This is me and this is my opinion” even if the person I was speaking to had twenty years more experience than me. Even though I will still do it now it’s almost followed by “but of course if you don’t agree I’ll shut up”. That is ridiculous! I didn’t achieve everything I have so far for apologising for my opinion, or feeling uncomfortable if someone had a different opinion to me.

Nothing is impossible. I haven’t got a clue where my mojo is, but I’m going to find it. My inspiration. Elle Woods. You may see Legally Blonde as a lot of froth but for me it is a fun, silly and over-exaggerated version of the way I live life. I do things my way, I’m not nasty and sometime I’m so sickeningly sweet you want to throttle me. But in the end I always succeed.