Give me a break!
You may have noticed a slight lull in my blogging of late. I’ve had other stuff going on, and although at first my reaction was to beat myself up about not keeping all the balls in the air (hands up who also does that? I can’t be the only one) I have realised that actually it is quite fine to have an off week or two.
That goes for my novel as well. I was meant to be blogging the synopsis last weekend, but when it came to editing what I’d written so far it just didn’t sound right. Although I’m determined to finish this novel there’s no rush.
Actually I’m taking that attitude to life at the moment. Before I moved to Durham I had a hell of a three years and achieved much more than I ever expected I could by the time I was twenty five, but I was also exhausted, stressed and it had taken its toll on my mental health. Now I’m in Durham I have time to unwind and relax and take things at a slower pace for a while. I know eventually I’ll want to increase the pace again, taking things easy doesn’t come naturally to me. For now however for the first time in my life I am giving myself a break and learning a few things about myself…
• I am not superhuman (disappointing I know… there will be no comics made about me)
• I am not perfect
• It’s ok for me to make mistakes
• It’s ok to be emotional and irrational from time to time and not beat myself up about it (again having to acknowledge lack of perceived superpowers!)
• I am not confident 100% of the time
• In certain situations I am shy (this has been the biggest revelation to me, though apparently my best mate figured this out years ago and neglected to tell me!)
Although I have decided to give up my quest to be a cape wearing woman with pants over her leggings – I do secretly hope one day an infected spider will bite me, whilst I’m living in a sewer and learning to fight crime (or something like that!)
p.s. Yes my favourite superheros are Spiderman, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Batman
p.p.s. My favourite Turtle was Michelangelo because he ate pizza!
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